WTF is your problem?
Lately I have been thinking about how my time in SL is allowing me...no, no, no...forcing me to deal with long-standing RL "stuff", personal issues, character flaws, whatever you want to call it. Something about the world, stripping away distractions, text based relationships, immersion in this virtual space -- all of it-- somehow for me it is fertile ground for self exploration.
Of course in SL we can be who and whatever we want to be. At the same time, I wonder to what extent the virtual world dictates who we become while we are here. I ponder this because I have not made active choices about who I want to be in SL. I created my avatar and set about living.
Without ever intending to create a separate identity I have noticed some striking differences between Chestnut and the person at the keyboard. Ches is softer and sweeter which is easily understood. Who would not want to be a little more kind and understanding than they are IRL? What is somewhat odd is that Ches is more fearful and fragile by several orders of magnitude than the RL human. I don't know why, when given the option to be anything, I would *choose* to be anything less than fierce. And yet? There it is.
If you are looking for a brilliant conclusion to this post, I am sorry. There isn't one. All I can say is I am on a journey with the dream of SL as the backdrop, this blog as my journal and the people in my life as the players. I keep learning, growing, moving, building, creating, dancing and loving.